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Closing!

2009-09-30T10:59:00.003+08:00

I think I will be closing the blog down...

although it will be left alone in the internet world...just like this...

A big thank you to the person who help me start and design this blog.

I had my fun time posting and reading my own posts...

but I guess its time to move on! =)

maybe I will be back=P

Farewell...

kunquan

Coffeeshop

2009-09-04T09:51:00.003+08:00

I was sitting at the coffeeshop with my dad this morning slurping my coffee...

Business was bad somehow...so we are thinking what we can do to improve it...

Suddenly...

I had this craving....

An idea that doesnt seem practical...

What if I can gather all the nice foodstalls that operate at school canteens..

that will be good...

Qifa Primary's Cold soya bean and prawn noodle stall

Tanglin Secondary's Malay food and Mixed Vege Rice stall

Pioneer JC's Chicken rice stall

SIM's Ban Mian

Hahaha...yummy!

kunquan---------------------thinking of the good old days

God's Promises

2009-08-07T21:15:00.000+08:00

You say: "It's impossible
God says: All things are possible- Luke 18:27

You says: "I am too tired"'
God says: I will give you rest- Matthew 11:28-30

You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says I love you- John 3:16

You say: Ic can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient- 2 Corinthians 12:9

You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps-Proverbs 3:5-6

You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things- Philipians 4:13

You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able- 2 Corinthians 9:8

You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it- Roman 8:28

You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I forgive you- 1 John 1:9

You say: "I can't manage"
God says: I will supply all your needs- Philippians 4:19

You say: "I am afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear- 2 Timothy 1:7

You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on Me- 1 Peter 5:7

You say: "I'm not smart enough"
God says: I give you wisdom- 1 Corinthians 1:30

You say: "i feel all alone"
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you- Hebrews 13:5

kunquan----------God sees my heart...

finally

2009-08-06T09:31:00.002+08:00

Finally... after so long
I decide to take a visit back here...was thinking of giving it a renovation. but...I like that way it is now.

Currently...working every single day of my life, waiting and fearing for my exams result..
planning for the future and getting ready to start school real soon. Many things happened since that day I stopped blogging. Many, by the grace of God turn out all great. I am thankful that I am who I am today because of His teaching and guidance. I am one of His rebellious sons and tend to stray away from Him. but no matter how sinful I am, He did everything in His timing to help me through, changing me from inside out. Looking back at how I have changed since the day I know Him. There isnt a single dust of doubt that God is still loving us.

To all my dearest friends out there...do not lose hope in your darkest day. We can make it through any storms with joy in our hearts=)

kunquan--------------I am back!

Iron Chef...

2009-06-26T09:18:00.002+08:00

During free time in office...
I decided to serve the net.....youtube!

After thinking for sometime, I decided to go watch the show I used to enjoyed a lot...
the show that always make me very very hungry before dinner....
a "battle" that I think is more interesting that a pokemon battle! =P hahaha

The show is "IRON CHEF"

where chefs give their best at kitchen stadium....
just by looking at the theme ingredient...
it not only makes you hungry...but makes you wanna travel the world to try them all....

As I was watching...my mind was like..."hey they can cook that at the coffeeshop's zhi cha, it will be great...(getting more business minded)

anyway......just something random

kunquan---------dream to be a chef

2009-06-22T10:21:00.002+08:00

Take my life I lay it down
At the cross where I am found
All I have I give to You oh God

Take my hands and make them clean
Keep my heart in purity
That I may walk in all You have for me

Oh here I stand
Arms open wide
Oh I am Yours
And You are mine

Take my moments and my days
Let each breath that I take
Be ever only for You oh God

Oh here I stand
Arms open wide
Oh I am Yours
And You are mine

My whole life is Yours
I give it all
Surrendered to Your Name
And forever I will pray
Have Your way
Have Your way

Oh here I stand
Arms open wide
Oh I am Yours
And You are mine

Hillsongs: Tear Down the wall.
Song: Arms open wide.

kunquan-----after so long, I finally know what these words really mean to me.

someone gonna get hurt real bad.

2009-06-18T10:06:00.002+08:00

Recently...we have been receiving calls from HDB and NEA.
saying that someone is complaining about the noise level at our coffeeshop.
And its seems that the person is doing it very often and now...almost everyday twice.
Either my dad or me will received a call from them telling us about the complain.
We did all we could. like folding up the tables and closing the sections near the hdb area.
Even the officers who came down have became friends with us knowing that we did all we could and there is nothing much he can do about the complain.
Then now...that person is starting to complain about one of the stall near the side of the coffeeshop.
saying that there is smoke due to the cooking....
that stall has the least smoke as most of their food are cooked at home. They only just heat up, keep warm and sell. what smoke is there?
That aunty got so irritated that she went every floor to ask who complaint. Everyone said "where got smoke? we nv complain. Ok leh...nothing wrong"

Now...we suspect someone is unhappy with us and wanna take revenge or something. We got a few suspects. but there is nothing much we can do.
Dun wanna add fuel to fire...
My dad wanted to know who tho...but HDB and NEA wont reveal of cos.
So I guess this is going to be a long lasting battle.
All we can do now is follow HDB's instructions and do what we can to cooperate.

kunquan--------when I find out who, gg to make him or her pay for my phone bills=P

ICT

2009-06-13T23:04:00.003+08:00

Finally
ICT ended!
It was a good experience although there was a lot of unhappiness with the things and activities being handled. Its was suppose to be a low key ICT but we are packed to the max for the whole week with a few tough training, considering the fact that we slacked since we ORD-ed. But I thank God for the Rawdy Brothers for sticking together and helping one another out and through it all. We work together and complaint together, eat together and suffer together. Hahahah...we complaint and complaint...but we get things done as a team. I am proud of them, proud to be part of them, proud to be part of Rawdy Brotherhood.

The best part I think was during every evening that we sat down and talked about our past trainings and the "shits" we went through. We realised how fit and strong we were. hahaha...all the studying and working and eating made us all a bit rounder. After the week of training..we lost a few kgs! I am sure of it.

ICT was a great gathering and catching up.

Today.
Watched MONSTERS VS ALIEN 3D with dear=)
Its was quite a funny show and the effect was good! Def worth a try! More new moives coming out. With ICT and exams over...all Ineed left to worry is result and work! =P

kunquan-----------HEAT RASHES! ITCHY!!

Driving

2009-06-05T08:23:00.002+08:00

This is my Driving experience...

If you drive early in the morning around the same time (like 6am for me) you can recognise the cars travelling alongside u. Its like " Hey, I saw that car yesterday and the day before too."

I am putting my life at risk every time I drive...
1) sometime I fall asleep...thank God so far only at traffic light when I stop.
2) I have like 1001 near misses since the day I go my license.
3) sry mum....her car has the most scratches and scars done by me. Well...I think all of them actually...For my dad's, none! 0!! ZERO scratches!
4) Both car had flat tires when I am driving! Irritating...had one yesterday and I had a hard time changing it at suntec car park! how interesting can that be. I gave up cos I do not have enough tools nor strength to get it done. This further prove the point that I need to exercise=P
5) its the first time i drive so slowly yesterday night due to flat tires. hahaha

kunquan-----is gg ICT next week...

Self and Public

2009-06-01T10:34:00.002+08:00

After exam...
Its work and reservist. hahah...this is really tiring!

Anyway yesterday sermon concluded what I studied for exams
"Public self" and "Private Self"

Somehow I am aware about my own public self, the way I talk and behave. I used to think that public and private are important for interaction with people. Without it, interactions wont go on as smoothly as I want. Some people call it hypocrite. But I think its a form of self defense for our own feelings and thoughts.

Well...that is what I learnt in school. But...with God, its a different story. There is no need for two self. No need for that self defense.
I am learning how to remove the compartments in me. So next time when u speak to me...it is Me! hehehehe

kunquan----going ku ku from studying too much.

Esap

2009-05-27T10:29:00.002+08:00

Was at expo's coffeebean yesterday morning studying for my ESAP paper in the afternoon.
It was quite quiet until there was a big batch of uncles and aunties came out from a talk, seminar or something.
Saw most of them carrying a bag saying "CashFlow 101"
so anyway...
the coffeebean suddenly became over crowded.
there was not enough table.
One uncle in His 40-50s came and asked if they could sit with me.
Its just a small round table. Since I only need the chair so I dont mind sharing.
His wife and his friend came along too.
They saw me studying

Uncle 1: " You studying for exams? Hope we are not disturbing you."

Me: "oh its ok...I will be going in soon."

Uncle 1: "so how many As u planning to get"

Me: Anwered without thinking "As many As as possible"

(Inside of me I was thinking...its true but currently I have none and so far it seems impossible to get even 1) hahaha

Uncle 1: "Good good keep it up."

Uncle 2: "Why choose UOL instead of other in SIM? my daughter also in UOL"

Me: "UOL degree is harder and tougher to obtain..so I decide to give it a try."

Uncle 2: "Good choice. Its hard to obtain but in the long run its better.

Me: " thank you!" =)
(Inside of me I was like thinking...The exams are not good for short run. the stress is killing me. hahahaa)

Anyway...we had a nice short chat before I left the table for the exam hall. The convestation somehow affirms me that what I chosen wasnt really that bad even though it is tough. They nice people I must say. even wanted to buy me coffee. Its good to meet nice people around. Thanks to whoever they are.

kunquan------God sure knows how to bring people together.

Exams

2009-05-25T12:21:00.002+08:00

This will be my final week of exams with paper on 26 and 29 of May.
As much as I want them to be over, I also wish I had more time to study.

Sometime our plan dont always work out the way we wanted.
Like how I thought that I can spend the whole weekends studying for the paper tmr. I started planning once I received my timetable. I didnt expect that I have to go back to camp on sat for army stuff...so sat gone.
And I thought...still got sun and mon. If I work hard. I still can make it.
I was wrong again. Fell sick on sat night...
Sun I was trying to study but I cannot really concentrate.
and here today is mon and I am still sick.
I have to force myself to study and hoping that I will remember until tmr paper is over.
Yup...so my plan to study hard was gone just like that...

Sometime I dont understand His plan and His ways for me.
I know that I am longer walking closely with God due to worldly temptations and modern-day-work-exam-stress-tired scheludes.

But hey I came across this sentence
" Faith is better than any plan."
so I shall continue to walk in faith.
and not by what I planned.

kunquan-------is in need of pimple cream

nightmare

2009-05-19T12:21:00.003+08:00

" The night was quiet and dark with nothing but our solid fuels burning as we waited. we were dispacted to defend an area. Its a war torn zone with nothing but ruined shop houses.. The night was long...very long. Suddenly...there was a rumbling noise. The ground start to tremble. Everyone quickly ran to their cover and stand guard, not knowing what is heading our way. I checked that all are in position when the rumbling noise got louder and louder. Before I could head to my cover...warplanes start flying over me. I stood there and stare...because they were in their hundreds. The ground shook even harder. I was frozen to the ground as the sound was blasting into by ears. I was thinking...we are dead for sure...we are out numbered. Rifles to planes...how to fight. At that moment. hope was lost and fear gripped me. I was trembling in fear..."

Then I was awaken by a "time bomb", my alarm clock. Its was a nightmare! I think its due to too much studying and stress or something. cant be me playing too much game cos I didnt. well....even though I am a awake, the dream felt so real that my body was weaken by fear alone. As I dragged myself to shower, I still cannot forget the moment I was frozen in fear. that feeling is so...scary.

hahaha...oh well...its was a good nightmare+P

kunquan------something random.

Exams

2009-05-06T15:17:00.002+08:00

"I am not ready for exams!!! Ahhhhhhh........"

kunquan------------is stress and not ready at all...

Restricted area

2009-04-23T22:09:00.004+08:00

Due to recent food poisoning and stuff....
Work got a little busier with all the checks, rat hunting, cleaning up...
Recently someone complaint that our coffeeshop is too noisy at night with people watching soccer and eating supper.
but its a coffeeshop not library....cannot expect me to just ask people to keep quiet.
so so ....we put up sign boards this morning to ask people to lower down their volume.

Dad: " I think here put up two more will be good enough."
Me *looking around*
Me: "wah...the whole place is filled with warning signs...no need to deco or repaint the wall"
Dad: *laughed* "Hard life"

There are
"Please keep the place clean/Do not litter" x4
"No outside food allowed" x3
"No pets allowed" x3
"No smoking" x6
"Smoking area" x3
"No sale of beer after 11pm" x2
"This section will be closed after 11pm"x2
"Please lower down your volume after 11pm."x3
"Please lower down the volume of the television after 11pm"x3
"No cycling"x2
"Please keep the toilet clean"x2
...
...
...
I was thinking....
I should just put up a sign that says
" "RESTRICTED" AREA "
cannot do this cannot do that....

kunquan-------so many signs, so many please until as if I am begging people=P

2009-04-18T09:25:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RxPZh4AnWyk

"a wake up call"
Great performance
kq-----moved!

thats my King!

2009-03-31T08:21:00.002+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e3SaLyy1wjw&feature=related

kunquan----That's my King.

Swimming

2009-03-27T09:50:00.002+08:00

Life short stories

Speeding down highways early in the morning. (Peaceful)
Working (Irritating)

Hot kopi C (Awakening)

Jump into the swimming pool (Refreshing--cos its cold!)

Swimming (Exercising)

Floating in the water with sun on the face (Warm and Comfortable)

Washing up and travel from the pool (Troublesome)

Starbucks' Hot white choc Mocha (Yummy)

Sofa with music. (Relaxing)

Start to study (HEADACHE and WORRING)

My morning Mood swing until now....hahahaha

kunquan--------studying, mugging, cracking brain & skull.

life is short

2009-03-25T08:42:00.002+08:00

Life short stories.

" Problem that be solved with money is not a very big problem."

I heard someone saying this sentence and I got to say that I do agree with the statement to a large extent.

"The three hardest things on earth.

Steel, diamond and understanding a person."

(Not by me of Cos)

ahquan--------zzz zzz zzz zzz

Child

2009-03-24T21:37:00.006+08:00

Welcomed to my life
(I kind of like that song by Simple Plan)

I'm a Sinner.
A God's Beloved.

I am weak in many areas.
Yet I am strong in Him.

I am struggling.
But if there is no struggling,
there won't be any achievement.

No Pain, No Gain

Impossible is nothing
Nothing is Impossible.

No training
No passing of Ippt.

ahquan-------No God, No me

coffee

2009-03-23T15:59:00.002+08:00

I remembered once in army that I slept less than ten hours for five days with continueous mission training after mission training through the days and nights. The total distance I marched, can easily be equal to the total distance I actually walk for a month ( currently, most of the time I spend is either sitting down mugging/working or lying down sleeping...hardly use my legS.) but the strange thing is coffee work for me back then. I was still active after two three cup of coffee.
Now I am sitting at starbucks with mocha ice blended venti and I am still sleepy like I nv slept of a year. I guess when u don't use your body a lot, it starts getting useless. Hahahah.. The more u slack, the better you are at it .

Kunquan ...

Life 2

2009-03-21T12:25:00.002+08:00

Life Short stories

My dad once told me that people who are hungry and decide to skip their meal because they are lazy to either look for food or prepare themselves, they are those who cannot be helped. I love to eat, I love to cook...but I am lazy, I dislike the cleaning up part=P

Breakfast/Lunch/Dinner = Preparing+cooking+eating+cleaning up.

Everytime I think of the cleaning up part, I somehow will decide to eat fastfood or maggie mee.

I am quite a lazy person=P

kunquan----------------hungry

Life

2009-03-19T10:58:00.005+08:00

Life short stories

1) I like my coffee this way at the coffeeshop: 1/4 Evaporated Filled Milk, 2/4 Kopi O,
1 tea spoon of sweetener.
(Kopi C with sweetener instead of sugar)
Its a every morning thing that fuel my engine(brain) to start. The best alternative is extra thick Ice Milo. Best energy source to kick start the whole body. The icy part signal the body to warm up.

2) A half drunk man talked to me early in the morning at the coffeeshop today. Thank goodness he didnt smash the beer bottle on my head. Because I cant be bothered to reply him. just "orh orh ya ya " That is life working at the coffeeshop.

3) Yesterday at the coffeeshop, there was an old lady.Complaining about life. (I cant blame her for complaining) some people blame her for pampering her son much but some pity her. I pity her. $$ was taken away from her bank account by her son without her knowing. She didnt believe its her son who took it. Until the bank showed her videos of her son coming to draw money. Heart broken by the heartless. I now understand why my dad is so so worried that in the future, there will be world war of 3 ( My Brothers and me) over his "assets" I also dunno how to answer him when asked me that question: "will you 3 fight over what I leave behind" It is a simple question. But situations dun usually go our way. Only God knows. I can only ask for His guidance to keep me in track.

If you been to coffeeshop long enough, you will hear many stories and you can never believe there are really all kind of people out that. I would say 90% sadly are related to pride, $$$ and lazy.

Its has come to a point where, it is hard to praise people, thank people, grateful to people around and even trust people.

My dad say I trust people to easily, take what people say the way it is. Naive is the word. But that is the way I like to treat people. When I say "Thank you", it means thank you. From Dictionary:"to express gratitude, appreciation, or acknowledgment to." It does not mean that I am nice to you so be nice to me back, you owe me I owe you. "Owe thank you, Pay thank you". My dad say I need to be more firm and "hard". Well...yes. I will be firm. I will be how I was created and grow from there. I still treat people the same way I am taught, the way I have grew to become who I am now. Take what people say the way it is. What I say will also be exactly what it meant. (unless I am joking=) I will tell you. ) Well...its a good thing. I keeps me away from using negative words. =P If I said it. Then thats is what I mean.

ahquan-------thank you all for reading=)

Happy happy stay

2009-03-17T08:24:00.003+08:00

Was listening the the radio this morning...
958FM. ( Not that I wanna listen to Chinese oldies and Chinese news. It just that my dad only listen to this station. )

They invited someone big to share about how to be happy in life. And that person made a comment that I agree with.

Love make us happy. Many people seek love around us, in many ways or whatever ways. But we still dont get enough. The reason is not that is no love out there. But is more of we choose who to love, who we want to love. We reject love from people we dislike, we reject love when we get nothing out of it. And strangely, I realised myself doing that to God sometime.

From " My Upmost for His Highest" (Daily Devotional)

"Beware of surrender that is motivated by personal benefits that may result. For example, "I’m going to give myself to God because I want to be delivered from sin, because I want to be made holy." Being delivered from sin and being made holy are the result of being right with God, but surrender resulting from this kind of thinking is certainly not the true nature of Christianity."

I pray God will removed this selfish thinking of me that I only seek the Love of God for my own selfish purposes. That I only choose to love Him only when I can see the benefits in my life and reject His love when there is none. I pray not only will I love Him with all I have. But also show the same love God did for me to people around me no matter who they are. Amen.

kunquan-------Love is the answer. Love will find the way. when we love one another. It will be a brighter day.

My Secret Place

2009-03-04T12:52:00.005+08:00

This is one of my secret hiding place ( It wont be much of a secret if u can guess where it is=P )

A peaceful quiet place where is the breeze is cooling

The water so calm and still.
A place where I enjoy relaxing, pondering, wandering, and praying...not forgetting daydreaming=P

A very good place to put down some heavy burdens you are carrying and enjoy a peaceful walk.

This is a place where I enjoy my conversation with Him. Heart to heart. Man to God. A place I love spending time with Him.

kunquan----prelims down, time for exams....

my God

2009-02-20T11:59:00.003+08:00

I just received an email...telling us the timetable for Pathmaker. Honestly....when I saw it. My eyes just stared at the screen blankly. For the next two months...every sunday will be at least until 3+plus. Basically whole sunday its gone! I am fine with it since I am used to staying in church till quite late. But...this time round it felt so different. Its longer how well Pastor KO can preach, or what lessons I am looking forward to learn. But more like my brain is trying to squeeze some brain juice and think of what I should do.

"Stay Home and revise?" "Skip my sunday lessons? " or "I should just take a break and go Church for meetings?

I know that if I go church, I will worry abt sch work and exams, esp now till June. Giving a serious thought, time do pass very fast.

But if I dont how, I feel as if I am missing something for the week.

Either way....I am not going to feel good=S

kunquan-------choices have to be made. Bo Bian!

God Words

2009-02-18T11:57:00.002+08:00

Rise, let us be going —Matthew 26:46

Ahquan-----God is working=)

Ah Quan wants to be Free

2009-02-18T11:32:00.002+08:00

I dunno how to manage myself...
Especially now that I am running short of time and energy.
Studies have affected my work
and Work have affected my studies
Now...I am neither here nor there...
Worst still...all are due at the same period of time...May/June
I wish I have the courage to go against him and concentrate on my studies.
but I know if I dun help him, no one else will...
I only have my past laziness to blame, suck my thumb and go head on against all odds....

I am feeling as if I am like a tired old heart.
I want to stop pumping and rest...
but I know that if I stop...
Problems will rise....
that person will be dead...

KQ life has changed a lot since work started...

KQ------is seeking back himself....

Yeah

2009-02-15T22:18:00.001+08:00

Yesterday sermon was another reminder from God that I am slowly drifting away from Him. When we were asked to ask ourselves how was our spiritual relationship with Him, after all the growth we experience so much during our youth or first few years of Christian life. It struck me that during CG sharing....it was the past victories or encounter with God, Like a year or so ago, that I can share as how God worked in my life. Now is more of tiredness, stress and sleepy..."I am fine" kind of things that I can share.

I realised that God's Word is like water. Plain water that only quenches my thirst. His Word are no longer like milk that fills my need nor wine that brings Joy, like how it did in the past. I know something is wrong with me, even tho I keep saying I am ok and fine.

No doubt that God still is working in me. Its just that I need to seek out the problems in me, the condition of my heart and mind, so that I give my best for Him.

kunquan-----is rushing to catch up....

sleepy drive

2009-02-12T08:27:00.002+08:00

I remember I once read in the newspaper saying that a sleepy driver is worst than a drunk driver. I know why...

When you are drunk, your vision is blur and reaction slow.

When you are sleepy....you just close your eyes! =P

Kunquan------is a dangerous driver in early morning and noon time! Please stay far away!

This is my prayer

2009-02-05T09:18:00.002+08:00

Desert Song
By Hillsongs: This is our God

THIS IS MY PRAYER IN THE DESERT
WHEN ALL THAT'S WITHIN ME FEELLS DRY
THIS IS MY PRAYER IN MY HUNGER AND NEED
MY GOD IS THE GOD WHO PROVIDES

THIS IS MY PRAYER IN THE FIRE
IN WEAKNESS OR TRIAL OR PAIN
THERE IS A FAITH PROVED OF MORE WORTH THAN GOLD
SO REFINE ME LORD THROUGH THE FLAME

I WILL BRING PRAISE
I WILL BRING PRAISE
NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST ME SHALL REMAIN
I WILL REJOICE
I WILL DECLARE
GOD IS MY VICTORY AND HE IS HERE

THIS IS MY PRAYER IN THE BATTLE
WHEN TRIUMPH IS STILL ON ITS WAY
I AM A CONQUEROR AND CO-HEIR WITH CHRIST
SO FIRM ON HIS PROMISE I'LL STAND

ALL OF MY LIFE
IN EVERY SEASON
YOU ARE STILL GOD
I HAVE A REASON TO SING
I HAVE A REASON TO WORSHIP

THIS IS MY PRAYER IN THE HARVEST
WHEN FAVOUR AND PROVIDENCE FLOW
I KNOW I'M FILLED TO BE EMPTED AGAIN
THE SEED I RECEIVED I WILL SOW

"this is my prayer in my mugging
when wisdom and guidance flow
I know Lord is my saviour and King
so lift up my praises I will..."

heheheh=P I need to destress...this is how I do=P
Anyway...let this song be the prayer of my heart.

kunquan--------I'm filled to be emptied again...

Families

2009-02-03T14:39:00.004+08:00

Family 1 (summary)

The parents have a son and a daughter ( I like her cos she is so smart and cute=P---she is 2 I think so dun get the wrong idea).
The dad is an oversea grad earning around 5k plus. The mum quit to look after the kids. Have a two storey house and a car. They believe in what I believe in. They are like the dream kind of family I want to have.
Sadly, I am very disappointed with the parents. They argued over money problems. The dad keep wanting the mum to go look for a job to cope with the expenses. The mum complaint that no one wants to look after their kids. They think Childcare is not good for them. Dad is not giving mum much allowance.
Disgusted even more when I heard the mum saying. "oh I need to go do my hair later in the afternoon." "I had my afternoon coffee over there. very nice."
When she came whining to my mum, I wanted to tell her to get lost. Why keep asking us for help when they themselves "don't want to" (not cannot) managed themselves properly? Furthermore, both are highly educated heard the God's Word.

Family 2 ( summary)

Parents with 3 daughter. all schooling. dad deliver goods and drive taxi at night and on weekends. 2+ to 3k at most. a HDB and a car. Mum a housewife. The children learning more about God. Have savings and are willing to lend us a hand when we never even asked them. Mum treat us to pizza and sushi whenever she come. They have no complains about their life and they are a happy family. Both parents not highly educated at all, never read the Word of God.

My dad asked me one question. Who will I help if I were him. Family 2 of cos. But what sadden me is the example the Christian family is setting to other non believer like my family. I don't believe them when they say "God will provide with what they need" when they do nothing. I believe in God. But not this way...It angers me when they say that to my parents. How do you expect my parents to believe or even listen to you when you actions differs to what you say.

God opened my eyes when both family came to my house for CNY dinner. Allowing me to see the things I need to learn that is happening around me.

I Pray Lord that You will teach me and guide my way.

kunquan--------A part time mugger.

Guess what next

2009-01-29T16:33:00.002+08:00

After Chinese New Year....

Test after test...
soon...lectures will all come to an end...
but revision lectures and mock exams will come next...
once they are done...my IPPT is due.=S
so are my mugging period...and at the same time handover my job properly..
and very soon I will be stuck with exams for the whole month.
and when you think once exams are done, I can relax...
no no.... time for me to do closing of accounts and preparing for audits.
and at the same time serve my first ICT( In Camp Training)

Looking at the next few months, I realised I am packed with what I need to do (Cannot be lazy and take MC kind of thing) till JULY! That is like more than half of my 2009. hahahaha....guess I no need to worry about what I have to do next...

But I guess a lot of people lead this kind of life or worst...people who worked more than 10 hours a day to support their families, students who work in the day and study part time at night. I really respect those people who work so hard without much complains. Like I use to think that our dream career is always those 8-5pm daily. 5 days work week. At least more than a 2.5k pay cheque. Company give benefits and bonus. I am daydreaming again. I think I have to be Lawyer or CEO of some big big company in order to do that. Or I have a property in orhard road. =P ( didnt know i can daydream on blogger too=P)

For now...I only want to seek rest in Him.

kunquan------work study exercise and eat. Thats life for now....

I miss

2009-01-26T21:40:00.002+08:00

I realised I told a lot of people I quite like my army life...
Though its full of hardship...
I told them I miss my buddies...
the way of life in there....
but after sunday CG bs and sharing...
I realised what I miss the most... was none of the above...
What I miss the most was talking steps of faith...
depend and fully trusting Lord to help me through and grow...

I Miss spending time with HIM.

Kunquan-----happy CNY

FREEDOM

2009-01-22T10:52:00.005+08:00

THIS IS MY KIND OF FREEDOM

to let go of all fears and burdens

and take a leap of faith.

Its been almost a year since I started working but to me, it felt like ten years. I often hear a lot people say that I am very lucky. Family business for me to work. No need to worry about life outside, worry about looking for job. Can choose to go work anytime you want. Some even say I dun need to study too hard. (=P Although I wish sometime) But often I find myself complaining and explaining that working for my parents its the worst job ever unless your family business is like Paris Hilton.To me its hard to work for parents because it is too hard to reject anything they throw at you. ( Maybe that why when I play soccer, I love to be the Goalkeeper-----when you get shot at, just catch it!). A sour relationship at home its not good thing at all. Beside, our family depended on the business for everything. School fees, bills, food,home, red packets=P . If I dont help out, who will right?

My parents are old. To me, I am just try to be a good son and help them out when they needed. But as exams are drawing near, I find myself no mood to study=P maybe cos work has taken so much of my energy. Lesson learnt, I have to give up little little things in my life to accumulate time for rest. My gameplaying, movie time, my cny shopping, my blogging.

Looking at another point of view, I learnt a lot about myself too. My bad habits and weaknesses during work especially. Maybe when I go work outside after I grad, I will try not to commit them=P I realised I am a very very lazy person.(*laugh*). Looking at my own performances, I cant help it but laugh at how lazy I am. How I dislike little troublesome thingy to the core and try to avoid them. As I list down what I need to complete, I realised its those little little thing that I thought are troublesome and useless that are slowing my progress.=S

Got to admit I am a very person. hahaha....hope I can change m attitude towards work if not my nickname can be called "LAN DUO KUN CONG" (lazy bug)

still...accounting job is too boring for a person who cannot sit still=P

kunquan------yawn yawn.. I am in debt....sleep debt with interest...

2009-01-15T13:58:00.003+08:00

I had very good memories and many lessons learnt during my time of service here...
Thank you all. Praise God.

Haha...It took everyone effort to transfer the whole wall of words from our old yishun camp to Bedok camp. Paint the wall, word by word...

kunquan....... Memories, the older the better...

Working on sun....

2009-01-11T08:45:00.002+08:00

Its a Sunday!!!!
But I am Left with no choice...
but to stay in office and clear up the work...

I dun even know the reasons I am working for now...

kunquan-----------stress...

my call up...

2009-01-05T22:59:00.001+08:00

Sunday...we were discussing about our calling...

So...I got mine today...

My ICT call up....

going back to army life for a week..

kunquan.....here we go again.

Love!

2008-12-30T14:41:00.002+08:00

1 Corinthians 13

"4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8Love never fails. ...."

I believe this does not only apply to just family members or close ones...but to everyone I know, people I call friends and buddies...to people who are new in my life. To people God is going to place in my life...

To be exact...It is not easy to LOVE and yet we have to love so many people. With just pure human strength, alongside with all our weaknesses, we need God even more!

ahquan-------" Lord, empower me..." Year 2009!! hehehe

Merry Christmas

2008-12-25T22:22:00.002+08:00

Merry Merry Christmas.

A special Christmas...

Praise God, Thank God...

Ending this Christmas with prayers and praises tonight.

ahquan----------Slient Night....O Holy Night.....

Random

2008-12-23T13:02:00.004+08:00

“According to your age, list down the number of things that most people don’t know about you. And then tag 5 people.”

Here goes...not in order...

1) I am quite afraid of narrow and confined areas. No matter day or night. My imagination will run wild in these kind of places. I found this out when I am play FPS games..I tend to prefer wide open spaces=P

2) I prefer sports that are competitive. I love sports like Fencing, Taekwando, wushu..blah blah...Fighting. I may just come up with my own "Kun Quan" to fight shaolin quan. I find these sports really fun.

3) I have fear of height...but more often, excitement always exceed fear so I will try Jetty Jumps or Heli rappelling no matter what=P so not much of a problem.

4) My right side of my body is slightly more well build compared to left....due to fencing. I trained more on my right than on my left. Now not so bad...

5) I never celebrated my bdae in pri sch and sec sch...Christmas too. They are just public hoilday to me. I only got my handphones when I started JC. Guess Hp are the key to more parties=P Now...they are more than just holidays to me.

6) I love to watch movies...however not just movies. I love to listen to the soundtracks too. Yeah...currently now my favourite ones are from Chronicles of Narnia Prince Caspian.

7) I have great interest in animals and wild life since young. I am quite a wild child=P

8) Breakfast is a must for everyday. Eggs are best

9) Its hard to get me to spend on shopping..but it is easy to get me to spend at buffets=) hahaha

10) I am a very light sleeper...so please try not to sms me after twelve. I will wake up to reply. I will wake up five minutes before my alarm goes off. I dunno why. so dun try to sneak attack me when I sleep. It will nv work. The negative side is that I will be quite sleepy throughout the day.

11) I love to sing...only songs I like=P hahaha...but I cant sing well.

12) I cant stand for more than half an hour cos I will have backache. Same goes when I am seating down. I cant seat still for long. Must keep changing my seating position so to relieved my backache. Think must have injured it during army training. OLD MAN!!

13) I can fall asleep when I drive. Especially during noon time...after lunch, in the aircon car, safe from the afternoon heat. Plus my lack of sleep...those are the dangerous time to be a passenger. =P Dun worry...I always force myself awake...really use force. *BITE BITE*

14) When I write essay...I need to write a lot a lot of drafts....I keep changing my mind...which is bad during exams. Worst still...I dun score=(

15) I can think better and expressed myself when I am talking to you on MSN or sms. It allows my brain to process what I want to say while I type. I cant do that quite well when I need to speak up...words will come out quite unstructured.

16) I am a listener and a do-er...not a speaker.

17) When I am stress...I will fall sick=P

18) I like my drinks/food to be either very hot or very cold. Warm food are fine of cos...just that I prefer both extremes=P

19) I cry when its my first day of sch, more than my brothers. Cos I dislike gg to sch last time!

20) I Never created a blog before=) hahahaha

21) I used to wear my watch 24/7, to shower, swim, sports, sleep...I need my watch cos I dislike wasting time...now I dun cos there is handphone.

22) I got some more...I think...but they shall remain...as mystery. Cant exposed all my weakness right? wahahaha....
More will come along when I grow older.
Have a Merry Christmas to all.

kunquan-----why singapore dun snow!

Prayer

2008-12-17T20:58:00.002+08:00

Read the New paper last week and came cross this news...

A Girl had some heart and lung illnesses...
she was in a coma and surviving on a machine that is pumping oxygenated blood into her to keep her alive....
She broke the record for being the one who survive the longest using that machine...
Doctors were surprised that she survived and is recovering...
Finally she woke up...
See her parents and too weak to talk...
Her parents brought her pen and paper...
and there she wrote...

"Later when you pray, tell God that He is very very good."

A simple sentence, short, and no fancy words...just straight from the heart to Our God.

I feel ashamed that I have not been doing this very often...
Thanking God from the bottom of my heart...

kunquan----forgive me Lord.

Life...

2008-12-02T20:34:00.004+08:00

*Clear the dust*

I am like this blog.

When I am busy, I tend to neglect about myself like how I neglect this blog.

Blogging is like soul searching, like QT when I spent time reflecting on what is happening in my life and get back on track.

Its the last month of the year and this year was like a major exam to me as a person, as someone God created me to be. I got to admit, this year was a really really rough year with all the things happening. A lot of changes happened and life wasnt the way it used to be or rather I expected it to be.

I am, however, really glad that I am going through all this "Shit". The question I asked the most this year was: " Why me? why is it happening to me? " I remembered one sharing I did with the CG and they all can tell that I was stressed up when I myself didnt realised it. I was trying to stay positive, strong infront of everyonemost of the time, even infront of God. But He exposed all my weaknesses within.

Praise God that He opened up my eyes and heart. His wisdom continue to guide my every action, every word. I know I have strayed away a lot. Its feel like I am being constraint by the norms of society, what people expects out of me. But I learnt what "Freedom in Christ" truly is. As I looked around on what is happening around the world, I learn to treasure what I have a lot more.

Sun service spoke to me in many ways that sums up what I have learnt. "Love the people close to your heart." Here is a " Thank You! =)" from the bottom of my heart to everyone who played even the puniest role in my life. I have indeed learnt a lot from all of you. The encouragement and your actions have changed me in a good way.

Oh well...oh well. I think this should be my closing post for year 2008 eh. Although work havent come to a close, nor my sch life. But it will be a year end closed for me as His son. Planning for next year will start and that includes celebrating Christmas and Chinese New Year. Muhahaha..
Come to think of it, Its not so bad to start afresh and celebrate Christmas feeling, brand new=P

HoHoHoHoHo...

Kunquan-------- Prayers and Praises lifted High....

There they go...

2008-11-19T11:37:00.004+08:00

Farewell wishes and a safe smooth fruitful journey to the Khoos.

Really going to miss them a lot a lot...

As I pray, I praise and give thanks to our Lord Almighty for blessing

me and the cg with such a wonderful family.

Their guidances will be remembered and

will see them coming back soon...

Kunquan------Thank you very very much!

sleepy

2008-11-15T08:17:00.002+08:00

For this week...
I over slept twice.
Its quite a big deal to me.
Cos it didnt happen to me like this for many years...
Its a sign...
I am burning out slowly...
.
.
.
ahquan-------------I need to good long sleep!

This is my Prayer

2008-11-13T08:21:00.002+08:00

"This is my prayer in the Fire

In weakness or trai or pain.

There is a Faith Proved of more worth than Gold

So refine me Lord through the flame..."

....

Kunquan....prayer

2008-11-10T13:15:00.000+08:00

"Self-pity is of the devil,

and if I wallow in it

I cannot be used by God for His purpose in the world."

ahquan

BS

2008-11-06T08:08:00.001+08:00

We know that all things work together for good to those who love God . . .

—Romans 8:28

ahquan

Draw near

2008-11-04T16:34:00.002+08:00

" Draw near to God and He will draw near to you "

—James 4:8

ahquan

Rach

2008-11-03T21:11:00.007+08:00

Guys with Bdae Girl..

We just love to eat..

Group...

Happy Bdae Rach
Praise God for rach growing old
Thank God for the Cg
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Kunquan--------Walking the path god chosen for me...

Cg

2008-10-28T15:01:00.003+08:00

Its been a long long time...

so this is to add some colours into my life.

So yes...they have been great playing their part in the cg and my life...

Yes I have grown older and I miss youth days...

but YA is not that bad...

In fact, is good to be in YA..

I am very happy to see everyone of us growing in Him

We strayed, we struggled, we shared we learn and we grow..

Kunquan------always look on the bright side of life=)

Desert song

2008-10-02T14:50:00.002+08:00

This is our God: Desert Song

VERSE I:This is my prayer in the desert

When all that's within me feels dry

This is my prayer in my hunger and need

My God is the God who provides

VERSE II:

This is my prayer in the fire

In weakness or trial or pain

There is a faith proved Of more worth than gold

So refine me Lord through the flame

CHORUS:
I will bring praise I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

VERSE III:
This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

BRIDGE:

All of my life

In every season

You are still God

I have a reason to sing

I have a reason to worship

VERSE IV:

This is my prayer in the harvest

When favour and providence flow

I know I'm filled to be emptied again

The seed I've received I will sow

LIfe

2008-10-02T08:07:00.002+08:00

Life has many ups and downs.

The Downs seems to be the easier way.

While Ups seems to take a longer time.

I am so tried

that I just don't feel like moving....

kunquan-----welcomed to my life

Dream

2008-09-20T08:00:00.002+08:00

I dreamt that I was buying dinner from a zhi cha store and they are selling Crocs meat..still alive and fresh. So I decided to give it a try. I tried to catch one myself because they were pretty busy. They are just baby crocs. so wont be hard right esp when they are all tied up. But somehow...one managed to break loose and I spent one whole "night" ( really one whole night in my dream ) hunting it down. Very gan jiong...I was about to get bitten when my mum woke me up! End of drama dream. Lousy ending, making me sleepy early in the morning.

Surprisingly, when I drove pass one of the zhi cha store towards a hawker for breakfast today, my mum suddenly just tell us that...she saw that zhi cha store being shown on tv before. They say they sell great Crocs dishes!! My dad said maybe we should try it someday. Hope its not the same place as my dream! It felt so real when my mum mentioned that! hahahaha....

Something interesting to end the week I guess.

kunquan----something random but it happened.

This Our God

2008-09-18T08:02:00.002+08:00

HILLSONGS LIVE

THIS IS OUR GOD

Your Grace is enough

More than I need

At Your Word I will believe

I wait for You

Draw near again

Let Your Spirit make me new

I will fall at Your feet

And I will worship You here

Your presence in me

Jesus light the way

By the Power of Your Word

I am restored

I am redeemed

By Your Spirit I am free

Freely You gave it all for us

Surrendered Your life upon that cross

Great is the Love poured out for all

This is our God

Lifted on High from death to Life

Forever our God is Glorified

Servant and King

Rescued the World

This is Our God.

Kunquan----------the One the Way the Light...

Find me

2008-09-11T14:36:00.003+08:00

Find me and I treat u a can of drink=)

kunquan-------I came across this on flickr!

When u Believe.

2008-09-09T13:14:00.002+08:00

WHEN YOU BELIEVE

Many nights we've prayed

With no proof anyone could hear

In our hearts a hopeful song

We barely understood

Now we are not afraid

Although we know there's much to fear

We were moving mountains

Long before we knew we could

.
Chorus:

There can be miracles

When you believe

Though hope is frail It's hard to kill

Who knows what miracles

You can achieve

When you believe

Somehow you will,

You will when you believe

.
In this time of fear

When prayer so often proves in vain

Hope seemed like the summer birds

Too swiftly flown away

Yet now I'm standing here

My heart's so full, I can't explain

Seeking faith and speaking words

I never thought I'd say

So in times when all your hope is gone

And you go through life afraid

In your heart there lies a hopeful song

That is there to guide the way

And all the hurt and all the pain

You soon will learn was not in vain

For all your prayers, they will be heard

They'll come to pass through faith

I can say many of us watched the cartoon Prince of Egypt before right? It was one of my favourite cartoon when I was very young. Still is. I think I have watched it more than twenty times already..It was also the first cartoon I actually cried. When I was young I really didnt know why but I just felt happy for the people. Little did I know that the God will have such a great impact in my life today. I can say that me becoming a Christian was no accident, it was not just a friend who brought me to church but was God's plan all along. Slowly...He was teaching me about Himself so that when the time comes I can be of use to Him. Looking back...I realised a lot of things don't happened by accident. Most of the time we gave up waiting for Him but He continue His work in us without us knowing. Until the time is right, He reveals it to us. From there we are able to see His great plan with our human eyes.

I am indeed very thankful for who I am now and the people around me. Even though I have a lot of flaws, I am still thankful that I am growing in Him.

kunquan----------------look at your life through Heaven's eyes.

Exam

2008-09-03T09:37:00.001+08:00

Oh crap I did badly for one of my sub....

Now need to change my timetable for next year again! ahhhhhh!!!
Starting sch....start of another busy year.

kunquan---------taking a different path

Human Race

2008-09-02T11:17:00.006+08:00

Nikeplus: The Human Race.

JUST DO IT!

I joined the race for some reasons....

1) The big poster at queensway keep attracting my attention when I pass by there every morning...

2) Wanna encourage the cg to join...( many didn't make it in time for the registration)

3) I like the title...It is full of meaning! haha..

4) The Race Tee was quite nice and go free goodies too=) too bad I didnt get the number 0000001 or 1000000.

5) I am one of the one million!

6) Its my first race outside of army

7) My muscles are turning in fats...been sitting in office for a long time and many are commenting that I am turning really fair...

Its was a good run. Except the routes will be better if it is wider...and water point always end up with human jam. A few of us took part, me, dear, R, G, P and B. My bro went along too...Well well...Me and dear completed our first race! YAY! hahaha...its quite a accomplishment taking into account the fact that we have not run since the day we stepped into our working lives. We wanted to give up half way through tho but hey! its nike...Just Do It...so we did. Was surprise with the timing tho=) Both of us thought we took longer than that..it will be a secret=P

Its was a slow jogged...chatted, whine abt life, listen to other people conversations, enjoy the view. The best part about the run was that as we ran down the road...we met people we know..my secondary sch friends. my army friends, primary sch friends...

Encouragement from God as I ran: As u run along the journey of life, many people zoom pass you, or many people give up and drop out along the way. It is important that we stay focus, keep to our pace and don't give up. Along the way you will meet people who are your friends. A smile, a wave, keeping you going..It will never be a lonely journey even tho the race is tough and long...In the midst of all the rushing and noise..quiet down your heart and you will hear God whisper into your ears.=)

Kunquan------------Position: 210545 out of 1000000

A war

2008-08-18T08:49:00.002+08:00

My dad complaint and told me abt how sad he was and the difficult positions he is in this early morning...
I honestly feel sad too abt those things that happened and I cannot help at all...every single time.
But on the other hand, I feel very sian of listening to those complaints too...
As a eldest son I also cannot just sit around and dun bother...It will be my responsible to keep this family together too...but how am I suppose to go against so many of them?

My dad and Pastor Kenny did quote this before ( something like that ) " Wealth never last for three generations in a family"

Jealousy and comparing can really destroy the relationship between families and friends.

kunquan-----------me against the world!

ONe bad week...

2008-08-16T08:18:00.007+08:00

Was so pissed off....

Its was a brand new camera which is just about two month old from my dear for my bdae present. A camera that I have been eyeing on for a long time...
Being kind enough to lend my brother to JAPAN to bring some of his memories home..
And everyday I have to hear my parents complain about him,
the way he spend money, the way he "demanded to go Japan with his friends...

What I got was a piece of camera back which...
looked like it has been through mountains and jungles of Japan!
Or maybe a atomic bomb just went off there again...

like what the hell...Its not that my heart feels the hurt of the camera or the money that was spent on it...
but it felt like I was being betrayED, backstabbed instead...
it is like not a drop of care or effort was put into carrying it properly...not talking about protecting it.
If its a accident I understand...maybe just one or two scratches
but paint dropping off, cracks all over cannot just be an accident.

worst...my mum defended him. "Maybe its you. you nv check before u hand over to him?" "maybe the scratehes was there before u lend him?"
I am left with nothing to say...
I didnt want to defend myself either....
I have lost the will to fight back somehow knowing that it will end up even worst..

Guess this week was really a tired week....

kunquan----------tired!

Sadly

2008-08-14T09:11:00.003+08:00

Sadly...

I realised something...about myself lately...

My heart is hardening knowing that I cannot be taken advantages...
My eyes closed as I try to avoid seeing the ugly sides of man...
My body weakens as I go against the daily pressure of reality...
My door closed as I seek peace away from the world...

I could no longer hear God's whisper...
Nor feel His presence...
as I struggle in my own way to find peace and strength...
Somehow...I have lost the will to wait and wait for His plans to happen...

He is still the only way.

kunquan---------even the best fall down sometime...

Working

2008-08-11T08:36:00.002+08:00

Its been a long long time since I had a holiday..its a short one.
It was national day.
My first weekend for a long long period of time...
I was really really glad I could take a good break..
I was wrong for a while. My dad expected me to finish up the accounts and he is getting panicky about it. He wanted it to be done as soon as possible so that we can submit the income tax and blah blah blah...I know its pretty important but its was a mess left over by someone. I dun even know where to start. Knowing that I never study accounting before, it really going to take some time for me to digest before I can help. Rushing me gave me pressure.

Sun of cos my parents wasn't happy when I went out early in the morning.
Anyway...service was good. Pastor K and the Alpha course seem to be answering some of the questions in my heart.

A Chinese saying "wealth nv lasted three generation." that what Pastor K quoted. That is also what my dad told me during the weak. Pastor was right in some way that the rich can hardly find peace in himself. My dad told me once that if money can bring peace among people, he will gladly spend it. But so far money only brought heartbreaks and problems. unhappiness. What I saw and experience really disgusted me. I tell myself that I will not let money come in between any relationship. Even if it seems like helping someone, I will think twice. It will be a pity to lose a friend because of that.

So yup.... for Cg we did apologetics. hahaha...like what SK said, its a heavy topic. we spend 2 hours+discussing just one question. How we know what is truth or fact, how we defend our faith. We all realised that the knowledge we had is really sitting at 834 just not enough. Its a lifelong learning. But glad the Cg is learning more every session.

How was National day? I love the air show! hahaha...its like cool. I love listening those songs we used to sing in primary sch during celebration. Watching the parade brought back my memories to when I was part of the celebration. Getting irritated by people who dun want to listen to the ushers to watching the fireworks at the end and spending hours cleaning up the place. Everyone need to play their part in order to move on.

I guess its the same for us Christians. I have to play my part. Going to Church its like National Day when we say our pledge, sing the national anthem before we head back out as a citizen. After every Sunday, we listen to the message, feel inspired, recall what we learnt. When Monday come, we have to apply what we learnt and try not forget abt it=) Try as in many time, I do forget when we start rushing=P Like how I rush thru my working week, only to realise I cannot find peace in me. It was until yesterday I realise, I was depending mainly on my own strength...the strength that cannot be compared to God. +P

Take care and Jia you to you all out there!! =) cheers!

kunquan

WORKING LIFFE

2008-07-28T09:55:00.003+08:00

A customer called a few weeks back and asked about the price of a certain drink.

Today he came to order the drink.

But, too bad for him, the price had already increased during this period of time. He refused to pay for the extra charges, insisted that we dunno how to do business, "cheat their feeling", bah bah bah...and still want to take the goods for a cheaper price. OK, nevermind we pay the extra next time call the day before...but he dun wanna stop. Customer :"so u are saying I am wrong la"

Another "company" ordered from us.

"Your cheque is ready, I forgot to pass it to you. will send it to you tmr" ----------Thursday.

"oh I am sry, its raining very heavily, my driver very far away, by the time I reach i think you all close shop already". "You don't trust us?" I pass u the cheque on monday, Sat we close.--Friday.

The payment was suppose to due last last week.

hahaha....these are just two of the many examples!! I think as I work as accountant, I learn how to be a great LoanShark too. A nice one who don't demand payment right in your face but over the phone. We dun use red paint but we use red pens! Well..I thank God that I am learning quite a lot through these experience with difficult people.

kunquan------------O.$.P.$

legs

2008-07-08T16:29:00.005+08:00

A buffet with limited choices.
High class, cheap buffet with free gifts and lucky draw...and many dishes to choose from=P

Sry of spoiling your meal=P

OK...its pretty easy to guess who legs are these. and who has the "unhealthy dirty" legs=P

ahquan----random!

there is a time

2008-07-08T08:47:00.003+08:00

'To everything there is a season.' There was a time when you love, there came a time when you hated. There was a time when you felt you wanted to kill, now is the time for you to heal. There was a time you were broken down, now is the time to build yourself up. There is a time when you were at war in your being, now is the time to restore peace.

Justice Tay Yong Kwang.

You guys will come across this passage in todays THE STRAITS TIMES or NEWSPAPER. The new on the NS man who stole the rifle out of camp. When I first heard the news, I cannot believe myself on what I read and heard. Its like " Who will be soooooOOoo St***d to do such thing in Singapore?" "Its like you can run far away long unless you are trained like Mas"

But today news just changed my views about him and reminded me something again. I was in a wrong position to judge him the way I did. Comparing my family background and my life with his, I am very blessed. I got to know someone so great that will guide me throughout my life, pick me up when I fall, remind me when I lost sight of Him. Family members are important in the way we live our lives.

I was wondering today that if I was in his shoes, I don't think I will take anyone else life but I will take my own. Like what newspaper describe, lead a self-destructive life. hahaha...Just wondering only=p but yeah...As I read the passage above, I was reminded of Pastor KO message. Everyone make mistake. There are times when we ourselves have a bad day, when things just don't go our way and we are rebellious. Just as Justice Tay said. To everything there is a season. After that, its time to move on. I know why Our God is a Forgiving God.

kunquan--------Asking for Forgiveness...

say say only

2008-07-01T09:28:00.003+08:00

Say already also don't listen

Listen already also don't know

Don't know already also don't ask

Ask already also don't do

Do already also Do wrong

Wrong already also don't admit

Admit already also don't change

Change already also not happy

Not happy also don't wanna say.

hahaha...so how? not bad eh? I can translate quite well I think=P Came across this picture at the coffeeshop and its speaks about human nature. When I first read it, I felt it so real. Some way or another we experience this, I myself fall into this dangerous cycle.

Yesterday QT

"Agree with your adversary quickly . . ." —Matthew 5:25

"Do what you know you must do— now. Do it quickly. If you don’t, an inevitable process will begin to work ’till you have paid the last penny’ ( Matthew 5:26 ) in pain, agony, and distress."

This is what I got reading God's words yesterday and today. Many Times we enter that cycle above, and things that need to be done are delayed. And each time when time are wasted, we find ourselves rushing to pay the price, ending up tired and restless.

God can be seen harsh sometime, but I think without this, I would still be a small imature boy.

kunquan------God is good all the time!

held by the grip of God

2008-06-28T14:32:00.002+08:00

Held by the Grip of God

I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which

Christ Jesus has also laid hold on be

- philippians 3:12

Kunquan----hold me close to You.

MOnth End

2008-06-26T08:21:00.002+08:00

This month is coming to and end and work starts to pile up.
What I have learnt in that week is going to be put to the test..
Seriously, I am feeling very very tired...
Sometime I wish I have one whole day of break...where I dont need to work at all.
Sunday seems to be the only day left but is packed with other actvities that cannot be done in the week.

I have lost touch with God like how I have lost touch with nature ( If u get what I mean ;P)
Its computers, aircons, cars, pen and paper.
No longer beaches, sand and sea, the mountain top, the wind, the sun, the stars or and moon.
I rememeber someone once said that or I read somewhere that it is when we put down our daily work and stuff and head back out into the wild where we can spend the fully with God.
I remember I spend a lot of time praying during my outfield training when it was my shift to stand guard. Its feel great tho I am sleepy =P hahaha...

Anyway...its back to work!
May God blessings flow freely through everyone of us and that we can bless others around=) Amen!

kunquan-----------cheers!

The Call

2008-06-16T08:41:00.005+08:00

The Call - Regina Spektor - Prince Caspian

http://youtube.com/watch?v=oNsQewlFtEs

It started out as a feeling

Which then grew into a hope.

Which then turned into a quiet thought

Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder

Til is was a battle cry

I'll come back

When you call me

No need to say goodbye.

Just because everything's changing

Doesn't mean it's never been this way before

All you can do is try to know

who your friends are

As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dar horizion

And follow the light

You'll come back

When it's over

No need to say goodbye

Now we're back to the beginning

It's just a feeling and no one knows yet

But just because they can't feel it too

Doesn't mean that you have to forget.

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger.

Til they're before your eyes.

You'll come back

where they call you.

No need to say goodbye...

I am sure u all know this song if you have watched the movie. I watched it twice already and each time I learnt different things. That is why this is the best movie I watched this year so far.

I love the ending when they have to return back to their world...

It's just like us...Christian.

We craved to go back to Church during the weekdays..just like those kids wanting to go back to Narnia. There we learn about Jesus, about the people, about ourselves. We grow even though we fail sometime. We made friends (DLFs), we experience God's presence, God's word.

Still....Sunday will come to an end. And it's time for us to leave our comfort zone. As Children of God, we have to head back to work and to school. Just like how the children left Narnia back to their real world. It's back to work and the busy and rushy life.

It's quite sad right the feeling? It's quite sad when you have to leave "Narnia" back to the physical world eh? NS guys sure feel it when they have to book in on sun night=P I know I felt super sian and how I wish sundays have 2400000...hrs. Well..its something we have to face. God don't teach you lessons so that He can keep you in Church but teaches us lessons so we can face every single day when we head back out. Haha...its quite hard but lets encourage each other on=)

kunquan------good movies, great time!

BUSY WEEK

2008-06-14T09:10:00.002+08:00

I HAVE BEEN BUSY AT WORK...
TAKING UP A HUGE CHUNK OF MY TIME.
REACHING HOME DEAD TIRED. HAHAH....
JUST SITTING INFRONT OF COMPUTER AND LOOKING AT NUMBERS, ANWERING CALLS CAN BE THAT TIRING.
NOW MY LIFE IS LIKE SO SO ROUTINE! HOW I MISS ARMY LIFE=P

WELL TO ALL THOSE NEW NS MAN....ENJOY WHILE U CAN!

KUNQUAN------BACK TO WORK!

How have i Been

2008-05-31T21:55:00.003+08:00

The day I Ended my exam was also the last day I enjoyed and relaxed.
Been waking up at 5:15am and reaching home around 7pm.
Learning to do accounting, by learning as I work..no that easy after all.
taking up lot of memory space in my brain.
And I am really really tired.

Well..its been two weeks I think since I last went to Church.
With all the rushing here and there, i realise I am also slowly moving away, distancing myself away for God.

Many things happened. Its affected my parents and me, the feeling of being back stabbed. And its someone close to us. Its sad to see how people changed due to greed. Its quite saddening...like after seeing and hearing so much, you just feel that no matter how forgiving and helpful you are, you are going to suffer, taken advantage of. And its by going the other directions that you will feel safe and comfortable with yourself, to survive. Knowing how the person is, its hard for me to start talking to him, I dun even want to listen to him. I just despised him for what he had done.He dun feel guilty, still thinking that his plans worked well and we are kept in the dark.

Nothing can hide the truth. It will be revealed no matter how hard you try. As my unhappiness begin to grow into hatred, God spoke.

Reader's Digest June 2008
A Healing Fire
Its about a man in Cambodia..As a boy, he saw his family being forced into slavery and murdered along with others in a village. 33 of them and He was the only survivor and witnessed everything. He vowed to kill those murderous, even joined the police and try to use that power..He failed and left Cambodia. He became a Christian and settled down but yet in his heart, he knew that He was still living in darkness. God provided him a chance to step out of it. He Received a letter from World Vision asking him to teach in Cambodia. He went back, met the man who killed his family.

"Reconciliation can never take place if forgiveness is not granted first."

"If you have a wound in your leg, you remove the plaster and cleanse the wound. Its stings, but healing is taking place. Cleansing the wound is necessary for healing process."

He went back to deliver the message of forgiveness to the man who killed his father. It was extremely painful for him but it brought healing.

Well...it was a short story. But taught me a lot. Christ endured the pain so that there is forgiveness and healing for us. I got to admit that after what happened in my family, hatred and darkness entered into my life. It is painful to forgive him. Like why should I be so stupid to forgive someone who keep repeating his mistake over and over again, even tho chances are given to him. How do I forgive someone who dun even admit his mistake and become even worst.

Like how the story describe it...it is really painful to forgive. Its really the first time I find it so hard to forgive someone. Now I know why I should be grateful that God did that for me. I should be thankful that I am still here alive and bless while many others around the world are suffering. God blessed us with forgiveness and healing while He suffered, we can do the same for others too.

I hope healing will take place soon....

ahquan-------------with a thankful heart, I forgive

Morning

2008-05-26T08:03:00.003+08:00

For the past 2 days, I have been tearing and tearing...
I got an infection on my left eye..so bad that I cant doing anything.
I cant drive, not even play games or watch television..
Its my holiday and I have to stay at home...everything look so blurry.
Anyway...if U want to see a doc...Yew Tee Greenlife Clinic is Good=)
As in the doc is good=) hahaha...his miracle touch made me felt better=P

Well...travelled to work this morning...545am. The highway was quite misty.
The road ahead cannot be seen clearly...its not something I see every day
Hahaha....guess my journey this few days have been rather blurry and unpredictable=P

ahquan-------no matter what, just keep going=)

Its over

2008-05-22T23:45:00.002+08:00

Its finally over...
today I end my last paper...
I got to say this exam is the hardest I been through=P
Not entirely smooth sailing...
Anyway...starting work tmr straight...oh how great=s

Hey bethia...all the best for your last paper=)
Hey.... Have a smooth journey and a fruitful holiday=)
Hey to the rest....GOd blessings be upon you all!

kunquan----time to sleep

sick

2008-05-15T22:05:00.002+08:00

Feeling super sick now...
as in really tired due to the lack of exercise=p
this feeling kind of s**ks as in like
here u are worrying abt exams and no time to study..
and now I cant even study with the book infront..
looking at those words gives me a headache=P hahaha

oh well....next week will the end of sch...start of work=S

kunquan--------------cant talk

Pierce

2008-05-12T19:26:00.003+08:00

I was reading the bulletin, front page..

The first sentence caught my attention..

"I something wonder if we Christians appear to live a more defeated life than before we come to faith."

I have felt this way before...that I am more defeated then before. There are situations I never faced before in the past, or worry about. However, the more I grow, the more I know, the more weaknesses I see in myself. Overcoming them is not an easy task.

Its like you want to be the 3 year old boy, doing anything he wants without worrying how other people see it...They will be like saying "Ohhh so cute, so naughty" and smile at you. But as we grow older, We must think twice for every action...

Well...a good reminder that I should spend some more time with Him. Still got a long way to go...

Life is tough, boring, sian, its not easy and never smooth.

But never ending, never to be defeated

In Christ..

When Word of God pierce your Heart, Blessing and tears flow freely...

Ahquan------returning to the unchanging God

paper

2008-05-08T21:53:00.002+08:00

today is the start of my first paper...
they say first is always the hardest to take...
they were quite right...
my first paper was the subject I am totally weak in...
new exam venue and experience...nothing beats the stress when u see so many student flipping through their notes From Jurong East to Expo...
Its so easy to identify students from our sch=P
oh well...tmr another one...my second worst paper that I dislike=P hahahaha

kunquan-------exams exams...will be over soon!

Exam stress

2008-05-04T00:06:00.004+08:00

Exams are drawing near...D-day next week!
Yet..I dun feel the rush...like there is still plenty of time...
but at the same time...I am stress cos I feel as if I dunno anything..
when I read I feel I know them all...
I dont have the motivation I used to have in JC...to mug
And yet I know I need to...
Weird...
I am quite a confused creature now=P

kunquan----------------Need a SMACK on the head!

Lost

2008-05-01T15:01:00.002+08:00

I am lost...in time...

I didnt know it was thurs today unilt "now"....

How blurr can I be....

kunquan---------the sky is so clear

Be ready

2008-04-25T11:19:00.002+08:00

As exams are drawing, I still feel that I got a lot more to cover.
doing one subject makes me worry about the other subject which need some of my time..
Its like never ending till my exams are over I guess...
Every morning I wake up ready to study and aimed to finished certain topic...
but as the day drags on...I lose my focus, I lose my concentration..
soon....I am on my bed daydreaming again=P

Be ready in season and out of season —2 Timothy 4:2

Did a short QT and this verse came up..
It made me wonder...am I like the same, in my studies, and in my walk with God.
Do I only do it when I feel like doing it or when I am inspired to do it?

"Man against self"...saw this some where....
It is really not a easy battle...

kunquan-----------God's Words can be applied into daily life=)

bible study

2008-04-19T23:45:00.002+08:00

GROUPS
Pursuing Spiritual Transformation

Sessions are
"This is a friendship"
"Loves pay Attention"
"Knowing and Being Known"
"When Community Breaks Down"
"Forgiveness"
"Building a Passionately Inclusive Church"
"Being "For" One Another"

Well...I got to say this is one of the best book I have done for BS and QT. So its highly recommanded to all Cg leaders=) Or people who are looking for QT material. I cant really go summarise it here..but I am glad I learnt a lot through the BS sessions. I see my own weaknesses in myself not only through His words, but through others who shared=) We are almost going to the last session for this book. As you can see, all these sessions are all related and so I got to see a clearer picture of how I am as a Christian in my walk with God...Praise Him.

kunquan-----------BS

Healer

2008-04-17T11:16:00.006+08:00

HEALER: by Planetshakers

You hold my every moment

You calm my raging sea

You walk with me through fire

You heal all my disease

I trust in You

I believe You're my healer

I believe You're all I need

I bleieve You're my portion

I believe You're more than enough for me

Jesus You're all I need

Nothing is impossible for You

Nothing is impossible

Nothing is impossible for You

You hold my world my world in Your hands

kunquan-------All we need is found in You

Motivation

2008-04-16T09:52:00.002+08:00

Welcomed to my life...
Guess what....I have been trying to learn how to crack an egg using one hand only=P so far quite successful=P

Anyway...
I am studying on a chapter...called : MOTIVATION
and yes
I need motivation to study motivation+)

kunquan---------life is a funny thing sometime...

Result

2008-04-14T21:48:00.001+08:00

Got back my most of my mock papers ald...
Some surprised me, some made me kind of worried...
Guess I will be retreating back to my room, lock myself up and drown myself in theories...

Kunquan-----------study mugging

Forgivness

2008-04-12T21:46:00.001+08:00

"If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone.."

Romans 12:18

kunquan----------Forgiveness

In Christ alone

2008-04-11T12:20:00.003+08:00

In Christ alone will I glory

Though I could pride myself in battles won

For I've been blessed beyand measure

And by His strength alone I'll will overcome

Oh, I could stop and count my successes like diamonds in my hands

But those trophies could not be equal to the grace by which I stand

In Christ alone

I place my trust

And find the glory in the power of the cross

In every victory

Let it be said of me

My source of strength

My source of hope

Is Christ alone

In Christ alone do I glory

For only by His grace I am redeemed

For only His tender mercy

could reach beyond my weakness to my need

And now I seek no greater honor in just to know Him more

And to count my gains but losses to the glory of my Lord

kunquan-------In Christ Alone-- By Brian Littrell

Prayer

2008-04-09T21:41:00.002+08:00

"Search me, O God, and know my heart;

test me and know my anxious thoughts.

See if there is any offensive way in me,

and lead me in the way everlasting."

...

ahquan-----To pray instead of worry

evening

2008-04-09T19:41:00.002+08:00

Didnt managed to captured a photo of the evening...It was beautiful

The whole place...my house area...was in total orange in colour!

Somehow, it just felt very peaceful=)

kunquan-----knowing that He is still in control.

its all abt you

2008-04-07T11:10:00.003+08:00

"I'm coming back to the heart of worship"

Ahquan-----------Its all About You.

WOrk Hard

2008-04-05T20:39:00.003+08:00

Well...managed to settle my IPPT today=)
was really tempted to postpone it due to bad flu and cough but I went ahead anyway....
almost "KO" during the 2.4km...blame the weather, other day rain, today so so hot! Even after showering and cooling down for an hour plus, my head is still perspiring.

Went back to my camp and I have this..."Welcome home" kind of feeling....just feel very comfortable. Nothing change much...expect they are building some kind of a huge stage in the middle of the field..busy time I guess, for them. I walked around and went back to the company line to take a look. Everything that we painted, built, washed, nailed, hammered, kicked and jumped on...when we first came, havent change a bit. I remembered when we came it was like a war zone! The man are training hard as usual on a sat while the "rest of the world" is having fun. hahaha...I know I complained a lot during my service, but I have to admit, I loved those time spent with fellow buddies and man. They remain as one of the greatest memories I have. haha...I did consider signing on if you didnt know=P But I loved the "outside" world too =)

Well....one sad thing was that all those who took IPPT with me, today, sry to say, but most of them are really lifeless. Most of their face are really looked emotionless, no expression. Only a few, less than 5 out of 40 plus plus of us were eager to TRY our best for IPPT. Yes, its pretty sian to do it every year, but I dun think that is the reason to look so dead right? Is life really that sad here in S'pore? Most of them rush off in their cars once its over...
(I got the who shower area to myself...Shiok) Maybe life is really that busy, Never ending work, End of one thing, start of another. After I finished my run, I sat by the grand stand, cooling down, my mind begin to fill up..."Eh exam coming, left only one month and you still got a lot to cover" How turn off is that...phone rang and mum asking me whether I am going to work...felt even more turn off...

I have learnt abt a few different types of man from my IBM...man with different needs.
Rational economic man------needs: MOney
Social man--------needs: social life
Complex man---------needs: MANY!!
I think I am a complex man!! hahaha....

ahquan---------study time!

2008-03-29T20:56:00.004+08:00

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. . . . . .

. . . . . . . .

. . . . . . . . .

"We will praise You no matter what we go through...."

. . . . . . . . . .

. . . . . . . .

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kunquan--------------Amen!!

home

2008-03-29T20:41:00.003+08:00

Last time....bedok camp was my second home..
Then church became my second home...

Now...SIM is my second home=P
Spending so much more time there now than anywhere else....
I am so tired.

kunquan-------------exams mean end of sch.

Driving

2008-03-23T21:35:00.002+08:00

Yesterday...
was driving home from work...
late afternoon...
Sky looked kind of scary....it was really dark..
somehow its not grey...brownish grey...
it was pouring....
something exciting happen next that got me on high alert...
I cannot see where I was driving at all....
even my dad who is usually calm got a bit worried...
yup...headlights were on and still nothing can be seen...
totally blurrrrrrrr........
The next thing that happen....
I on my hazard light...
everyone else did the same....
in my blurry vision....those blinking lights were guiding me and keep me safe...

Well....I think i was pretty amazing how God spoke to me...
Everytime when we are in trouble, lost or confuse..there is no need to worry about..He is the light and the way. He will guide us through...we just have to keep moving on no matter how "blur" we are and trust in Him, what He has taught us...but at the same time as we move on, we shine for Jesus, guiding others along too...we let off this blinking light of His glory=)

kunquan------I love storms actually...that because I know I am safe=)

Exams

2008-03-22T09:13:00.003+08:00

Its a race against time...
some tell me one month is more than enough...
some are already preparing for the worst...
some already mugging in school every day...
I am already starting to panick a bit here and there...
hahaha...
and I got two more years of this to go=P

Its a race against time where speed doesnt really matter.

kunquan------------running running, IPPT coming...

Swimming!

2008-03-17T20:29:00.004+08:00

kunquan----I love this picture! It is beautiful in its way

It goes on..

2008-03-16T19:42:00.002+08:00

Well....can say its going to be almost a year I left the youths
Things definitely changed a lot..the way we see things, the way we do things. I miss those "younger time" but my life still goes on..well...still not time to call me uncle yet=P

Anyway...we had our pathmaker monthly gathering today and I believed a lot of us benefited from it. We all know that there are a lot of things in this world we need to decide on..SK said "its always abt choices..there is hard choices but never no choices." Choices of life style and entertainment.

Well...I agreed to so many of their views. The bible stated everything u need to know. Most of us know them..we know what is right or wrong. Although we all have different views the same issues. It really boils down to the fact that...How are we living our lives? Our are we going to make use of this life Jesus gave us? Its between you and God...you have to decide how u gg to live it. Other people cannot interfere or influence you...you can only choose to listen or not their advices. Anyway...I had a good time at the talk. Its so relevant to the sermon today. Jesus is the WAY, THE TRUTH and THE LIFE. Those who read God's word will see how powerful it is to our daily life.

So after that was captainball...haha...think after so many years of lack of proper training..I am getting more prone to accidents during games..floorball...get hit in the eye...captainball, bang into someone. Thank God I am still in one piece.

kunquan----------------Word of God Speaks

to loved

2008-03-15T08:13:00.001+08:00

"To have loved and Lost is better than not loved at all."

kunquan-------simple is good

a day out

2008-03-13T22:19:00.002+08:00

Was out with dear today=) ate till we wanna puke and shopped till my legs want to break. I think is just a guy thing..I only got one pair of pants=P nothing else interest me at all.

Watched The Leap Years. Well...go catch it if possible. I will recommend this show to others. Although I dun really like those lovey dovey drama mama movies..This movie, I think is simple and touching. So it is worth the money and time.

I learnt quite a few things from it...the quotes. Give you a different view point of life. Haha..no point for me saying so much. Its still up to you to decide what you see and keep it with you=)

so now it is the time to sleep..
exams are coming...
so is my ippt...

kunquan........Life : It goes on!

Swim and moive

2008-03-08T08:48:00.002+08:00

Finally...

my last prelim paper end half way through the exam...
I was stuck..with brain quite empty to think...hahaha..good experience

So I took a break yesterday...

woke up late...
watched tv...
made breakfast...
Swimming...I love swimming=) its peaceful in the water=) not forgetting to train for my IPPT
walked around LOT 1 and catched a movie alone.

hahaha...I think everyone need to spend time alone sometime=) Its good for you.

kunquan-----rest to walk further!

Life is short and unpredictable

2008-03-03T20:43:00.003+08:00

Alright...after all the Jam and speeding and redlights...

I managed to reach office in one piece..work as usual...

Today is the first time I saw my dad's face...
really really sad face...
For the past few months I have been hearing him out, his thoughts and struggles...
There is nothing much I can do to help other than being a good boy and listen to him and spend more time with him, at home. I know what he is facing. I know the situation at home and at work...I know how others behaved in ways that hurt him. I know because I felt it too...I can see. I can hear..but that is just how "human management " is...tough and painful..

SK once told us that Life is ALWAYS about choices..there is no such thing as no choice..there is only difficult choices and easy choices. My dad is facing many difficult choices..till today..for so long he has been trying to bring everyone in the family together..working hard to give a good life to us, at the same time helping others, sisters and brothers..but somehow...things just seems to get worst each day...Its quite the adult thing...so "little kids" like us have not much say. My dad asked me "How? tell me what to do?" I seriously don't even know too...the choices are difficult.

Went to the hospital to visit my dad's old friend. I have seen him many time. He is the insurance guy. Most of our insurances, he settle for us. He was once big and tall, fair but healthy. I almost cant recognise him today. I saw him two months ago I think or 3..he was still alright, just that he was bald due to chemotherapy. Now... he is lying in the bed...waiting as life lips away...He is so much smaller size than me now..so fragile..He cant speak nor eat. It felt as if I will break his hand if I shake hand with him..really..I know his story. He is rich. really rich. But what is the point he told us before. I have no use for them or rather I have used most of them for treatment instead of having a good life.
My dad told me a few time too...He maybe rich...but he is not happy at all.

Yup that is the face of my dad today..
the face that shows "no hope"

I still smile now...for one reason.
He is strong..
He never say he wanted to give up. I know he will continue to do his best and do whatever he can. That is just so him.

So as his son, I cant be so weak right? hahah=P

Our God is strong, He is our Strength. He never give up even if He faces the most difficult choice. To send His son to die for us. Thats How strong His love for us is. We are weak in nature. we get tired. we lose hope..But there is still a reason for us not to give up.

ahquan------How great is our God.